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The last time I was back in the 80's was not as bittersweet as this moment, I can tell ya. It was actually only a couple of years ago, back in 2014. I had decided to leave the job I was at as it just felt like a harmful dynamic to be in and I also knew my body needed some major physical therapy and rehab after going through the rheumatic fever, which had impacted all my joints, especially the right hip. I was probably close to the same start weight then as I started on here, in or around 210 lbs, but I'll never know because I didn't weigh myself until 6 months later. That period of time was an essential lesson in learning how to meet oneself where they're at in the present moment and progressing from there on.
I just figured I would throw myself into hard core exercise, 4 hours a day (yoga, walking, swimming), and I'd be back to the 160's in no time. I also "over-exercised" and probably ended up doing more damage to that poor hip then was remotely warranted. My brain was going off the premise that it still had a menstrual cycle and was running on a 30 year olds metabolism instead of a 40 year old. Ha! I didn't even bother to count calories and there were no weekly weigh ins. I was also drinking 90% more wine per night then I do now. Going through half a magnum of red wine per night was the norm. Finally, around the end of July, I weighed in and the scale revealed what I felt was a disappointing 187 lbs, and from there there on my disillusionment derailed me. Looking back now, I realize this process I put my through had a lot to do with learning to let go of my youth, embrace the realities of middle age, and learn to navigate and accept the challenges that come with reaching that milestone.
There will never be a time in my life where I lose weight so easily or quickly as I did at 33. And, in reality it did take me about a full 3 years in that last big drop to do it (with ups and downs in between). But, no the days of "I want to take off 5 lbs so I'll just skip a meal here or there" in the next 2 weeks are gone. Gone are the days when I don't have to be full present for every pound of weight I'm losing whether it be fat or water, especially now because I'm literally having to learn how to walk again, and I may have to come to accept my current circumstances as a new normal depending on how much functionality we can bring back to these legs. Gone are the days, I can binge mindlessly even on a cheat day and not monitor the impact. This is where I'm at now.
This time, hitting the eighties comes with a great deal of gratitude. I have been present for every single one of these pounds lost. There has been no "mindless" anything in regards to where I'm at now. This time, I look at the number, smile and say "thank you" to this body. Thank you for persevering, collaborating, and working with this addled middle aged brain to bring us here, which is a lot less for us to carry 20 lbs ago."
Now, let's continue... :-)
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1252 kcal
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Grasa: 58,98g | Prot: 66,97g | Carbh: 82,26g.
Desayuno: Ken's Steak House Lite Asian Sesame Dressing, Cucumber (Peeled), Mezzetta Super Colossal Spanish Queen Pimiento Stuffed Green Olives, Grilled Chicken, Cherry Tomatoes, Radish, Great Value Garbanzo Beans, Wild Harvest Mixed Greens & Spinach Salad. Almuerzo: Signature Cafe Grilled Chicken Caesar Salad with Salad Dressing. Pasa Bocas / Otros: Chobani Nonfat Blueberry Greek Yogurt (5.3 oz), Red Table Wine, Kashi Chewy Granola Bars - Chocolate Almond & Sea Salt. más...
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