Diario de Snowwhite100, 23 dic. 21

Thank you to those that have expressed care, concern, and well wishes. Actually, things are relatively okay here. Some better, some the same. Our daughter and husband are here for Christmas. Because of my husband's cancer, she wants to see him when she can and plans to come back in March for his birthday. She only asked that we make our traditional Italian Apricot Horn cookies and make an assembly line doing them like we used to do starting in 1971. I did eat 2 cookies yesterday but we only put 1/2 of the sugar in the apricot filling as called for, plus only put 1/3 of the sugar in the almond coating. Today would be day 16 of me giving up sweets and if I can resist eating any more cookies I have decided to just keep on counting. If not, I plan to go back on my "sweets" wagon after Christmas. She will be leaving Sunday, and that's a good time. You can see I have gained a lot of weight, now being heavier than ever in my life. The highest I have ever been before was 136 and I was 3 1/4 inches taller then. So now at 5' 1/2" I am more than fluffy. For New Years I would like to give up wine and bread for a time to lose some weight, but don't have any idea if I can manage since I am totally addicted to high carbs. I not only have not lost any weight in the two weeks since I went off sweets, but I have gained another 2 lbs.
My husband is doing surprisingly well with his cancer since Melanoma is very aggressive. The lymph node in his neck has shrunk by about a third and the pet scan shows all his other "lumps and bumps" are too small to diagnose that they would be cancer. His stomach bothers him a lot with his infection there plus he has acid reflux which is finally being treated now.
I think the stress of him getting mad at me almost every day plus the idea of probable future illness and national problems in our future has contributed to my weight gain. My back has been worse for the last two months. I have not been flat on my back like last spring but I live with so much pain that I am very scared about it. The future is uncertain for lots of us so I live in appreciation to the Lord for what I have today. I know He is carrying me.

62,9 kg Disminuído hasta ahora: 0 kg.    Aún para ir: 9,5 kg.    Dieta seguida: Bien.