Diario de Egull1, 25 mar. 24

Awww, Diana - give your nieces and nephew a big heart felt supportive hug from me to them. How lucky they are to have an auntie they can pull an immense amount of strength and inspiration from. We all have our obstacles to overcome, you have managed yours with equal grace and tenacity :-) SK & Kat - y'all know I just love the heck out of both of you! Pure spirit companions {{Big Hugs}} this souls cheering squad always :-) @shanekwa - thank you so much for your kind words! I always tread lightly when discussing MS. I don't want to be too "identified" with this condition because it's not all I am. On the other hand, since being diagnosed I also see how it has never really been explained in a way that others can understand well, which frankly doesn't help anyone with an auto-immune! Ha! So, when I can or when someone has questions I really do try my best to explain in a way that's easy. Even the medical industry makes it more complicated than it needs to be. It is a bit of mystery because we still really don't know what causes it or what "triggers the trigger". There's a lot of factors. But, how it impacts one's body isn't a mystery and I think people have a right to know at the very least how folks are actually affected. Besides, I also think it brings to light that at the end of the day, most of us run on electricity...lol. And, when the electricity goes wonky, well so do we ;-) Protein Pancake - you made this girl's heart giggle. Ya know, I did not ask my owner Billy Louis Flynn III if I was allowed to post his pic on a social media platform. And, I have to confess I don't think he would have said "yes". If I confess it, I will likely be forced to endure a weeks worth of 30 licks a day on my chin with his sand paper tongue for such egregious exploitation of his adorableness! I am ashamed, please lets just keep it between us, because my chin still hurts from this morning's tongue abrasion ;-) YOH - I would definitely say my Buddhist practice has been a HUGE part of how I approached this condition. I was so blessed to come into that practice well before I was diagnosed. It definitely helped me lend perspectives to the situation without getting caught up in it or wrapped up in fear over things that 9 times of 10 hadn't even occurred. It helped me to stay in the present moment, take my body and mind exactly where it was at, and transcend from there. The issue that arises with "ideal circumstances" is they often come with expectations and those expectations are often based on skewed perceptions like "I'll just be happier if...", or "everything will be okay if that doesn't happen", as if joy, happiness, and peace are conditional and only dependent on the situation one is in. It either leaves us living in the future or regretting our past. But, time and again we have seen when one can see the grace and gratitude in ANY situation (good or bad), the joy comes from within regardless of how ideal or not ideal it is and all I can say is when one understands this - the magic really starts happen. I never ever doubt the universe is holding every one of us in infinite love. We can't always know the reasons why things happen in our lives. No one thing is contingent on another, we can only connect the dots looking back, we can't connect them looking forward. But, rest assured if you can still look in the mirror and genuinely smile at yourself each morning then you really are being the joy and peace you already are...it's always there and nothing can diminish your spirit...and if you think about it nothing has so far...not even fear :-) 

Egull i actually took a screenshot of your last response. Im going to read and re read it. I love the message. Honestly love it. 

💖 Egull 💖  

Egull The last message was typed by Elle herself! These are her words. "Thank you, Dear Miss Egull. 🌈 + heart, spirit and hard work = success ✨ (one good moment is worth every seemingly impossible day) 😉 I never give up" 

Oh my Dear Miss Elle, my heart is full of joy. This is going to keep a smile on my face for a very long time. And yes! You are so correct! One good moment is worth every seemingly impossible day. And, in truth - the moment is all there is and I know without any uncertainty that we all are the strength, wisdom, and fortitude we seek. Thank you so very much from every part of my spirit and heart for sharing a moment with me. My spirit is genuinely with yours and steady as we go - We'll get through it :-) {{BIG, BIG, BIG HUGS}}